Monday, January 31, 2005
HELLO WORLD! it is I, your master!!!! MUAHAHAHHA! okayy.. whatever.
anywayyy... have just realsised why i wanted ta get a job in the first place. oh yea, boredom. hahha. righht. so what shall i do today? lets see.. maybe i shall just go slack somewhere. hmm..
oh my gawwd. I Knew I Love You Before I Met You is playing on the radio! HAAHHAHHAA. okay, i am seriously laughing now. hahaha. i dont like the song lahh. its boring.. but the lyrics.. hahhaha. okay, nevermind.. only a certain few will understand what i mean. *grin* but ya noe, its kinda stupid. i feel that the moment i start to open up, i feel as if i just shouldnt. ya noe? hahah. okay crap. that sounded kinda sick. urgh. haha.
*sings* "HEAAAALLL MEEEEE!!! IM HEARTSICK! IM HUNGRY!!! BUT I CAN SURVIVE ON YOOOUUU!!" oh man. i like that song. hahhaha. oh yea, got the 40 bucks from that survey thingy on saturday. was kinda funny. do i actually use the mirror thhhhhhhaaat muchhh? hahahha.. im not thhhhhaaat much of a vainpot lahh. hahhaha.. after that, went for the youth concert thing at paya lebar.
and i was tricked! jeremy said it was like gonna be 2 bands, his band and the other one.. and like sylvester n taufik. hahha.. and then there were all these other boring acts lahh. like chinese bands and stuff. haha.. so half the time we were like just tryin to keep ourselves occupied. haha.. lolx. mann. and there were like hugggee groups of malay families and stuff that came to see taufik! my goooooddneess. like mini Makcik camps! haha! =x and jennifer spoilt my beautiful hair by sticking lightsticks in it. hahhaha. but the picture was quite funny! haha.. gotta ask yvette for the site addie again.
haha.. read teri's blog just now. made me laugh like crapp. hahhaha. i miss sjc. =) haha. stupid bloody school yet i miss it lots. hahahha.. you know, im starting to wonder if i'll ever end up anywhere at all. like.. where the heck am i gonna go ya noe? its a weird and scary thought. well yea, anyway, i better go before i bore ya socks off. *grin* seeeee yaaaaa!~
//.. now i'm gonna confess that i love you. its a feeling deep inside.. feeling i could die. but if you turn away, baby, thats okay. at least we'll have a moment before you said goodbye.
you can't lose what you've never had.
(please do not ask me why i quoted dumb westlife lyrics. its just nice lahh. hahha)
brin bit this at ; 9:43 AM
Friday, January 28, 2005
whhhheeee! haha. aighhts. super cold now.. have no idea why this mornin is makin me freeze my butt off. haha.. aniwaee. gonna head down ta da gym later with rach. seriously gotta work off those damn pounds. they're killin me mann. hahaha..
hmm.. my hp keeps goin on and off for no reason.. maybe i should hurry and send it to be changed or sumthin? oh well.. my sinuses are actin up again.. is that how ya spell it? lolx. well yeaa. irritatin me the whole night. okayy. another boring day for me.. but at least im tryin to make myself useful by cooking dinner tonight. HEH.
cookin is fun lahh! i could do it everyday! but.. i guess women start ta hate it when they become housewives and they have to cook crapp everyday. haha.. oh well. but i make killer scrambled eggs okayy! hahha.. REALLY! u gotta try it sometime. haha aighhts. feel quite happy now. haha.. aint tellin why though. =)
okayy.. best be off. nature calls! =x teehee. *runs off to toilet* c yaaa!
//.. i'll be the one who tucks you in at night.
brin bit this at ; 9:43 AM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
okayy.. i just wrote a better poem than that. just re-edited it.. its really different now. haha.. i like it better but i think i over complicated it. chelsea said it was aighht so it should be fine. hopefully i will now prove my point! hahah. okay. crap. better be off amigoes. (damn. that sounds like mangoes! HAHA.) *muackies*
//.. i wish you'd just read the signs.
brin bit this at ; 9:27 PM
an ode past tense.
broken glass;
fragile yet
Clear.
The shattered pain is obvious;
yet oblivious to everyone.
and though my heart is breaking,
like solemn revenues,
i'm sorry.
will you stay with me tonight?
you were the only one
that saw right through me.
and though i hurt you,
i'm hurting more now.
like a sad love song,
i'm sorry.
will you stay with me tonight?
you believed in me when everyone else
Doubted.
you loved me when everyone else
Despised.
you picked me up from that
sorry pit of lies that i dug for myself.
like the deepest mistake ever made,
im sorry.
will you stay with me tonight?
a heart that's pierced
can still feel the trauma.
a muscle that aches
can still feel the strain.
a blind eye
can still see anguish.
but do you still see me?
and so like cupid and and his arrows,
im sorry.
will you stay with me tonight?
by:
an inspired brinster`. (haha!)
brin bit this at ; 10:23 AM
HELLLOOOOO!!
i feel great! i just wrote this bloody rockin poem! haha. okay, its not rockin', im just proud of it. its been a while since ive written any poem that doesnt make sense. haha.. i mean, poems that dont make sense are good poems! it means you have to make sense out of them! and i wasnt depressed when i wrote it kays. i was inspired by that woman in csi. i mean, yesterday's episode when her husband the womaniser died. hahhaha. okay, crapp.
poetry is sooooo beautiful! i wish i was a poet. i mean, like sellin my poems n stuff. like in the old days where shelley n keats n byron were famous cz they wrote stuff! mann. whats gone wrong with this friggin world. APPRECIATE POETRY. say it with me people. A-PREE-SHEE-ATE POE-A-TREE. . yes, excellent! thank you. =) hee hee.
okayy, so im gonna post the poem later. but its kinda mixed up. as in confusing. i mean, its called the ode to past tense cause its sposed to make ppl realise that everything is in the past. and its like a ode for people who regret ya know. its cool! i mean, okay, at the expense of sounding BHB, it is kinda interesting lahh. coming from me. haha.. not that i aint big headed most of the time already lahh. hahhaha. x)
okay, but enough abt my confusing poem, im lacking lit. lessons in my life thats why. haha. do ya guys miss school? i kinda do. i mean, some parts. haha. it was fun when there was no schwork i guess. hahha. aighhty.. mann. do you realise that people only start taking notice of famous painters n stuff when they're dead? like what the bloody hell right. its like when they're alive, no one notices them and their art is just like all so-so or whatever. and then POOF, they're gone and everyone's like.. "OOOH! THATS SO MAGNIFICENT!" i hate that word. magnificent. never could pronounce it. BAHH.
hahahha. WAFFLES! BAA HA! haha.. dont ask. okay peeps, see ya!!! looovvee ya!
//.. i htae mleysf for lvonig you.
[29] over and out!~ (damn seacrest.) =x
brin bit this at ; 9:36 AM
Friday, January 21, 2005
HALLLOOOO!
okayy. ive decided that i shall stop being such an ignorant prick. argh. hee. aniwaees, im so boredd now. bro's gone out today so am veryy excrutiatingly boreddd. oh yea, happy hari raya peeps! the only celebrating ive been doin is stuffin my face with sardine curry puffs. hahah
aniho, i feel like playing a game now. so i shall go play somethin. haha. aighhts. over and out!~ =)
//.. the only baggage you can bring is all that you can't leave behind.
brin bit this at ; 11:19 AM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
warning: only rantings ahead. do not read unless extremely boredd.
can i ask you guys something? why is life so shitt? can u tell me that. cz i know my life aint shitt but hell, some ppl just make it shitt for you right. like what the hell. im bloody nice to him all day. ask him "hw are you?" "do you want somethin ta drink?" blah blah. and what do i get. a fucken grunt. do you fuckin think im a bloody slave?
i have the bloody right to be pissed sometimes right. when its not your day i dont fuckin ask you to clean stuff or do this and that. and when im having the damn migraine again you ask me to help you do something. and for once in my life i say,"no" and what do i get? one fuckin week of ignorance? at first i cared cz i spose its my friggin duty to care as a daughter. but now im just pissed. i feel more mature than you. i know. ive been mature since i was 3. yea. whatever. it mite seem like im talking shit but im not. ur so fuckin childish. this is the last straw. im fed up okay. so fuckin fed up. just get away. whatever. over and out.
brin bit this at ; 10:09 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
brin is pissed off at the world today. do not ask why. argh. im tiredd and super angry at god knows what. maybe i rolled off the wrong side of the bed today. sheesh. arghh. i hate lectures. okay, ima gonna go think in my room. fed up. phuck you stoopid world.
//.. all that you can't leave behind.
brin bit this at ; 8:17 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
HALLO!
good morning! its 1.05 am now. staying awake to keep mum company.. busy doing her work. haha.. i have nuffin to do anyway. i must cut down on sleeping. over-sleeping makes one fat and saggy. hmph. and eating unecessarily. and.. i must start exercising. maybe i should buy one of them videos with the women doing situps in front of a waterfall! hahha.. that is like so FRIGGIN cool. ohmagawd. *bimbotica alert!*
hahha. sorry, was thinking about White Chicks. hahha. anihoo. u know what's funny. ducks. ducks are funny. hahhaha. they waddle. hahhaha. okayy. sorry, im being lame. its late thats why im gettin cranky. hahha.
ooh! look! its an ant! haha. okayy. ima gonna sleep. somethings wrong with me. im not stonedd. heh. BUH BYE! i miss 4F and all of lamerz united and the nutzzy powers and everyone in SJC! (cept' for sum idiots.) hahhaha.. c yaaa!!
//..if you'll be my baby.
brin bit this at ; 1:02 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
WOOHOO!
i am so dazedd and tired now. you know peeps, i have a message for you.
its a new year, and tomorrow is the first bloody day of the rest of your bloody life. so you bloody well make a new start! haha.. firstly, i just want to let you all know, that God loves you! do you know that!? really, He does okayy. He loves you despite every single shitt thing you do and every little bit of crapp you say. i aint preaching okay. but seriously, all He wants is for everyone to just love and care for each other. not in THAT way lahh. i mean.. aye. you know what i mean, right? so from tomorrow onwards, dont be ashamed to spread the love alright? and dont be afraid to admit that you love Him! i love Him! im being serious here. and i am not stonedd okay. sheesh. hahha
SO.. haha.. im nt trying to be a preacher or anythin.. its just this book ive been reading. its really some good stuff mann. makes everyone feel better bout themselves. haha.. aniwae. fer me its just the usual usual. been bumming with no direction in life whatsoever. haha.. oh shitt! its time for the bachelor! adios amigos!!! yay!
//.. you make bad look so good. =)
brin bit this at ; 9:44 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
HAHA.
I have company!!! MUAHAHA. okayy. so i was sposed to go job searching with yvette today.. but woke up to my mum still sleeping in the room. cz everyone usually goes to school or work by the time i wake up. (HAHA.) so yea.. realised that she was sick so being the filial (and bored.) daughter that i am, i had to take care fo her n follow her to the doctor! haha.
well, the good thing is that i have company, and the even better thing is she has a sore throat so she cant talk. which meannnnsss. i can talk and talk and talk crap and she cant say anything! MUAHAHAHA. *evil* okayy. so aniwae, im just bumming and enjoying life. like who the hell needs to get a job now right. i mean, people work when they're old right. and im not old right. so yea. HMMPHH. BOO TO YOU! haha
oh yea.. have you guys watched school of rock? ya noe there's this band No Vacancy that sings that "heal me, im heartsick" song? hahha.. i like the tune but i think the lyrics are damn stupid. hahha.. its kinda cool tho.. go check it out yea? hee. am suddenly missing ******. BAHH. how out of the ordinary. hahahha. okayyy. so yea. betta go. take care peeps. miss ya guys loads. love love. =) cyyyyaa!
//..heal me, im heartsick, hungry.. but i can survive on you.
brin bit this at ; 1:05 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
HOLA AMIGO!
hahha.. brin is back!!!!!!! wooohoo! u noe, ive come to terms with it. HELL if i dont get a job! i should rest while i still cann right! haha.. so yea.. BUGGER OFF! hmphhh.
okay, sorry, was feeling ranty. hee hee. aniwaeeee. i better go. my beef needs marinating. woohoo! steak!! =)
//..you stink. i hate you. you smell bad. =x
brin bit this at ; 6:08 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
If You Were Mine
If you were mine,
these tears would have no reason to fall.
life would be kinder and brighter
and maybe nights would not seem so long anymore.
If you were mine,
I'd have more reason to live.
I would love you everyday.
I'd bake you cookies
eventhough i can't cook,
and make sure you know how special
you really are.
If you were mine,
I'd still love you when you're wrong
and hurting,
and torn apart.
I'd be there for you even if
the whole world told me not to.
If you were mine,
nothing would seem so impossible.
fish would fly,
the sun would come out at night,
people would start loving monday mornings,
this shattered heart would pick up
its pieces,
and you would love me.
If you were mine.
by:
da brinster.`
brin bit this at ; 11:47 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
hola!
arggh. my throat hurts now. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WEATHER!!! its so cold! i mean.. it would make sense if it was snowing, but its so bloody sunny outside. like.. what the! ugh. well, had a absolutely weird dream last night. suppppperrr weird. haha. bt at least it meant that i was actually getting sum sleep. teehee.
mann. being under house arrest totally sucks mann. like how bad can this get. im so bloody boredd it hurts. HMPPPHH. I WANNA GO OUT!!!! stooooppid germs. bloody evil bacteria. WHERE THE HELL ARE MY ANTIBODIES MANN!!!! argggghhh. sorry, im becoming more n more psychotic by the minute. hahaha
that's it. im so fed up im just goin to compass lahh. gonna rummage my cupboard for something to wear then im off. ive got nuthin to do aniwae. and besides, i dont thin theres any food in the fridge. arggh. oh bother. but im so friggin lazy though. am gonna call the video ezy ppl today as well. hmm. finally. oh well.. til' later. buhh bye!! =)
//..i just don't want to miss you tonight.
brin bit this at ; 1:01 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
hulllloooo!
da brinster is finally back in da houseeeeee! hahha.. aniwaee.. firstly, a very belated happy new year ta ya all! =) havent been online fer ages. down with a bloody fever.. went up to 38 friggin degrees that day. arggh. but im gettin better.. so all aint lost. hahha. waiittt....
:: CAUTION: EXTREMELY LONG AND DRAGGY ENTRY AHEAD. DO NOT READ UNLESS BORED. ::
haha.. nw that we've got that settled.. hee. been so darned cold these past few days.. ive like practically been living outta my dad's closet coz i keep swiping his long sleeved thick sweaters and stuff. hahha.. well.. its the first day of school today.. this feels as awkward as arse coz i keep feelin i have ta just go put on my uniform n get back to school. haha.. kinda feels like something's amiss or sumthin. hahha..
so yeaaa. tis the first day of school, and here i am, coughing my lungs out n writing this loooonnnngg n boring entry cz i have nuthin better to do. supposed ta start work at that video place last week but i gt sick so now im nt sure if they still need me around cz the guy was lookin fer ppl to fill in urgently. ahh. no loss. i'll find another job. or.. maybe i should just bumm around for 2 months?? hahha.
couldnt sleep properly last nighht. bloody nose was blocked and head was crazy in pain. arrgggh. aniwaeee. at the end of every year, i give like a lookback on things thats happened.. unfortunately, since ive been moping around in sickness (HAHA.) i'll give ya guys this very BELATED one now! hee hee.
da' brinster's rantings of 2004!
*audience claps*
WOOHOO!!! well.. what can i say.. 2004 has prob been one of the most stressful years of my life. mostly because of the bloody o levels. more than a thousand million trillion billion gazillion of my lymphnodes have burst because of that too! haha. (my friends should noe what i mean lahh. cz im always complaining. hee.) but.. although it had me really stressed, i also learnt the extent of what i was able to push myself to to accomplish my goals. (OH SHIT. is this getting too soppy or something? =x haha!) bt im being serious though. hee
mann.. for me i felt this year just went by so quickly. like.. at the start, everyone was so chilled and then it became like a mass state of panic towards the end. was kinda funny but yea. scary as hell as well. haha. that rhymes! haha! whoops. =x well.. 2004 was also my last year in SJC, and also as a convent girl. HAHA. will really miss those times just laughing like crazy in class and stuff. life in sjc was crapp but funn too. haha.. actually, it doesnt really feel as if ive spent 4 bloody years in sjc. it still feels like ive just entered the sch like last year. lolx..
whereas when i was in primary sch, it felt like ive been practically living in OLGC my whole life! haha.. okayy.. betta get back on track. hmm.. 2004 really wasnt much for me aside from the blastedd o levels. (which i so am trying not to think about! HAHA.) oh yea.. and also my first trip outside malaysia. haha.. which was to phuket. which i was kinda bummed abt because we were staying for a very short amount of time. haha.. but it was a damn good thing that we came home early, otherwise we would have been hit by the tsunami too. mannn. i can only thank God and pray. he really does work in mysterious ways. =)
bt overall, it was an okayy year. and to all those people in my life who made 2004 worth living for, thank you. =) hee hee. (mann. that is just too soppy for me to take!!!) hahaha
`end.
aighhhtss. there ya go. another lookback on another wonderful year. haha.. mann. okayy.. i betta end here. i could go on forever. hahah.. taaa!! =)
//.. can you spare the time to throw a drowning man a line?
brin bit this at ; 9:16 AM
